Hi (aitus) [I am a beacon]

I am a Beacon.

In an empty room I am a signal bouncing off walls. Feeling empty with no returned signal.

This signal outputs energy, a vibration.

I stand in a space,

Gathering data and perspectives.

Bottle necked with information.

In a sea of many people.

I am a signal pinging.

Pinging like tides.

Searching

… … …

I am a beacon.

As much as we need people, who are everywhere, we ignore them.

I’ve lived my life as if I am for everyone. I tried to be friends/friendly with people I met. It wasn’t until I was In forth grade, right after transferring schools, my school counselor told me “You don’t have to be friends with everyone.” I was shocked. I stared at her and wondered Why would anyone say that. What’s wrong with more friends!? What do we become then?

This idea that I did not have to be friends with everyone was strange. I had met every person with the intent to BE friends. That’s how friends were made, right?

I hear people talk about being too much, too attached, this that and the third…and perhaps we should acknowledge people say those things.. for generally one of two reasons: They are influenced to believe there is a standard amount of “it” or that amount is outside that persons capacity and they can either express it or they are unaware.